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It’s OK To Not Be OK
Handling the Menacing Meltdowns
“I’m not ok”.
These words keep rolling around in my head and have been flying out of my mouth almost daily for the past three weeks.
“This isn’t me” I keep thinking to myself. “I know it’s ok to not be ok, but fuuuuuuuuuccckk, really right now? What the hell is wrong with me”?
“NOTHING” I scream back at myself in the fury that has become the dominant energy surrounding me lately. I’m actually mad at myself for uttering the words “I’m not ok” so many times a day, maybe even a bit ashamed (to be honest) because I’m such a “positive” person.
True story. This has been my life in between the moments of pure fear, uncertainty, and WTF questions about what is happening to humans on this planet.
Trust me when I say that no one’s got it all figured out.
I’ve been battling this “I’m not ok” energy for what seems like forever. It’s only been about three weeks, but when you deal with this type of pattern for days on end, it’s bound to drain you at some point.
I think I’ve reached that point. The bottle is dry.
All I want to do is sleep and zone out. And I have been. There’s a reason my body is telling me all this right now, and it’s important to listen to those…
