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Is What You’re Feeling Really Grief?
When you know what you’re dealing with, it’s easier to heal.
Recently I heard someone say “Depression is a clinical term. What you are experiencing is grief”.
That really hit home.
As someone who has lived with “depression” for decades and dealing with it being out of control the past almost 5 years, I realized that grief is exactly what I have been experiencing.
I never REALLY wanted to end my life, I just really wanted to end the life I was living. It wasn’t that life itself wasn’t important, it was that the way I was living my life (or lack thereof) that was misaligned with who I wanted to be.
THAT was one of the reasons why I was so unhappy.
And it was GRIEF that was leading me down that road.
My dad died of cancer in 2003. I had 4 years to say goodbye but I wasn’t there when he died. I never got over not being able to truly say goodbye or do half the things I wanted to do with him- like ride motorcycles across the country- or even just go across the country on any road trip with him. We had plans to go to Belgium and Amsterdam my junior year of college, but due to his medical status that didn’t happen, and he wasn’t around to see me graduate college or get married or meet his…
